A Different Approach

I’ve been thinking about getting back into writing for several years, but every attempt has been unsuccessful. This blog used to help me a lot during a very difficult period in my life, but after that, it no longer served me well. It became clear to me that if I ever wanted to restart it, I would have to do it in a completely different way… but how?

The blog originally started as a place for me to jot down my findings as a novice ACIM student. Then, I discovered that the English sources contained much more information compared to the Japanese ones. Although I carefully chose authentic sources such as FACIM, this ended up creating a mess.

In a nutshell, I should have kept silent but failed to do so. I was posting too much without realizing that I was making some people uncomfortable, which was, in fact, a reflection of myself. Once I realized that, why would I bother repeating the same mistake? That was the main reason I couldn’t bring myself to start writing again for years.

A month ago, I suddenly had this brilliant idea that could solve all my problems: post everything in English so that this blog would be peacefully ignored by domestic readers. At first, the idea seemed absurd because I didn’t have any time to write, even in Japanese. Nevertheless, the idea of “speaking out loud without being heard by my neighbors” seemed beneficial, and I was drawn to it.

However, I postponed doing so because I was extremely busy and didn’t have time for anything personal.

One night, I was under immense stress from work and had a panic attack while I was in bed. Since my mental state had been very stable for many years, I took this as a warning sign. I was cornered to the point where I needed help.

I asked my colleagues for assistance, but it was not enough. I needed to find a way to help myself at the same time. So, I started writing again without worrying about other people’s opinions, hoping that this could change something within me.